WILY LIE!!!

Dark..
Sad..
Alone..
I'm here..

Cry..
Scream..
Yell..
In d'deep heart..

Sumtimes,
I feel bored..
Feel LoneLy..
Far.........
from my parents,
my lively life before with my fuNny frieNd..

Oh GOD!!
Here I am!!
With an awful circumstance..
Unadaptable new life..
Uncertainty friendship..

I look like a perfet disguise in d' excellent disgust thing..

I try to accept..
try to smiLe..
to wise..

It's a WILY LIE!!
Lie to myself..
to my heart..

What a pity am I??

Do it for life..
Do it for my parents..
'n do it endlessly..
Even if I don't wanna do it!!

Help!!